I believe in magic. Call me childish, call me a dreamer, but there are some things in this life that can't be explained and don't need to be. Stop trying to logic your way through it, chalk it up to magic, you'll feel better.
This morning something magical happened. I went for my first run in the rain here. If you know me at all you know that I really like to run, but my ideal run is had in the rain. Not torrential downpour rain, not monsoon or hurricane weather, just a nice, steady rain. A drizzle if you will, a shower, a sprinkle even... Anyway, the perfect rain fell over San Vendemiano this morning and I ran in it, and while I did, magic occurred. You see, I believe that when you run while it's raining you are able to physically leave your stamp on a place, and that place is able to physically leave it's stamp on you. When your sweat mingles with the rain of some new place and then drips to the pavement, or cobblestones, or vinyard path what-have-you, something special happens. When it's raining you can actually turn around and see the foot prints you're leaving behind, it's true! Even on an asphalt road, the impression keeps for a brief moment. And so this morning, while the Italian rain was seeping into my pores and my pores were weeping my mingled sweat into the Italian landscape, we shared a moment, Italy and me. We were sharing something of ourselves, something sacred and pure and sweet. In that moment I wasn't thinking about the run at Memorial that I could be sharing with friends (although I miss those terribly Val and Steph), and I wasn't thinking about how many weeks I have left on the trip or how many weeks I've been here, I wasn't even thinking about where I was going because at this point my feet know where to take me in this place. I was just thinking about enjoying each and every moment of this experience that I'll never be able to repeat. I was thinking about what kind of mark I want to leave while I'm here. What impression will these people have of me (aside from "there goes that crazy American girl again running circles around our town...") It's an important question to ask of your time in any place, small scale or large scale, don't you think? What impression will I leave on my home town? How about the city I live in now? What about the world?!? What kind of impression can I leave on this place and with the people that I have the privilege of spending this little time with...?
When I was having that brief bout with homesickness at the beginning of the trip, Silvia told me that the first fifteen days are the hardest. She said, get through the first fifteen. Cry whenever you want, feel what you feel, but get through the first fifteen, those are the hardest. I woke up to rain on day fifteen. I went for a run. I feel at peace with the impression that I'm striving to leave here. I will not know Italian very well when I leave. I will not come home with an Italian lover. I will not be much different in appearance or attitude, but I will leave a piece of me here. The people here will remember me. I want it to be because I was kind, and generous and compassionate and at times silly and quirky. I want them to remember that I smiled more than I frowned, and that I laughed more than I cried. I want them to know that I'm thankful and grateful, and that my heart is overwhelmed by their generosity. I want them to feel at peace around me, I want to show a helpful spirit, and I want to be selfless more than I'm selfish. This is the impression that I want to work towards leaving in the little time I have here.
Silvia also told me the other day that Franco, the man that is working on painting the outside of the house, told her I had a beautiful smile. Little does Franco know that I smile at him so big and so often because it's the only communication that I'm really good at in this place. Of course I know how to say "hello" and I do, frequently, but my best tool of communication in this particular world has become my face. I'm glad he noticed.
Smile at people. Everyday. All the time. It makes them feel good and it communicates more to a person than your "good mornings" or your "hello, how are yous" probably ever will. I'm sending you the biggest smile my face can make! Love you all.
Peace, Love and Travel,
Reba
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